I haven’t had an “I hate Taiwan” moment for a long time. Probably over 2 years. Granted there are still things that bug me but i let them go and never do they bog me down or spoil my attitude about life here. I’ve got on quite well for almost 5 years. I had a pretty typical first year here getting used to things," not understanding Taiwanese culture," etc…
I’ve learned the language, i’m self-sufficient, I don’t rely on local friends to get stuff done for me and overall, i’m rather content.
However, lately I’ve been getting irritated with the constant, running COMMENTARY. the on-going dialogue about everything I do, whether i hear it coming from my landlord who is standing outside my house with her neighbor bellowing “look, they did laundry. See how they hang it. there is a coffee cup on the table.”
or walking down the stairs of my building only to get more running commentary from the temple guys. “there’s the foreigner. where is she going? is she going to put on her raincoat?”
For god’s sakes I’ve lived in this building for over a year. Have they not gotten used to seeing me by now? I’m not that different. i work, sleep, eat and shit like everyone else in this world. I don’t need to be noticed and i’m certainly not note-worthy.
AND THEN it continues… i get in a cab yesterday and the first thing the guy says to me is I would be a lot prettier if i weren’t so tall. that if only i were around 170 CM’s tall instead of 183… on and on and on it went until he asked me if i have AIDS cause according to him, all foreigners have AIDS… and god forbid what would he do if i cut myself and bled AIDS onto the seat.
…only to get out of the cab at home to get more running commentary by everyone who is not in their respective homes.
what is it? it’s driving me nuts. leave me alone. stop discussing everything i do.