Lately due to my size, I’ve been looking at my overall health and related issues concerning my well being.
After looking at my blood pressure readings that I had recieved during my physical check-up - I have a feeling of dread.
Both of my parents had massive heart attacks and survived. My father, who was a professional football player in the CFL, had a quad bi-pass and survived. Only to die later at age 44 due to blood poisening sustained after twisting his knee. Shortly after the injury, toxins were released into his system which killed him within 2 weeks.
My Mother had a double bi-pass and survived but suffered from strokes right up untill she passed away in her sleep at 56.
Bascially, the rest of my family died of Cancer. Grrrreat stuff, eh?
So as you can see, I’m pretty much up shit creek if I don’t smarten up or is it out of my hands?
I’ve always been heavy. At 14 years of age I was a huge kid at the same weight I am now. Shortly after my 16th birthday I turned to athletics. Dropping a massive amount of weight ( 340lbs down to 210lbs). I became highly athletic thanks in part to my friends and their recongnition of my skills. I’ve always been agile and had excellent hand/eye co-ordination. Always into sports and what not…anyway…
Since then I’ve been up and down in weight which mostly has to do with the mentality I had during that moment in time. Either I was too light for what I wanted to accomplish or too big. There would be moments where I’d want to be faster and more flexible then there were other times where I wanted to lift a truck (literally).
I took up smoking at age 24 and haven’t looked back since. I also started drinking (sometimes to excess) and throughout that period of time I would be training as hard as I could which probably putmore stress on my heart. Starting at the age of 19, I also used/abused Anabolic Steroids which continued for quite sometime. Now, as some of you might know, I’ve stopped training almost all together. I suffer from shortness of breath, palpitations, fatigue and an overall feeling of unwellness.
There isn’t much in the way of response or motivation that I’m looking for from the F.commies because the answer seems simple enough. But some of the articles I’ve been reading, along with some of the athletes I was surprised to have passed away due to heart conditions at a young age, have me a tad worried.
My goals remain the same and will come to fruition in time but I’m wondering if there’s a snowflakes chance in hell that I’m going to make it past 50. Ha, even if I were to change my health I’m wondering if my mentality will allow me to live any longer.
There’s no doubt that I’ll recover my strength and general fitness but I’m actually wondering if I can prevent dropping dead where I stand. Man, what a way to go…
I’m 28 and I’ve always been a figther so I shouldn’t be thinking about this garbage.