I can understand how you feel, but just to make you feel a little better…here’s the story of Happy and Sambuka.
Happy was found by my friend Marcia, badly beaten(we think) and dying. AnimalsTaiwan took him in, paid for operations to fix his leg etc. He was fostered by my gf, but when she had to leave for a holiday she couldn’t imagine giving him away ,so he has now been adopted. Sure, he’s quite an abstract looking doggie (weird skull, missing teeth, which makes his tongue hang out, huge scar in his neck, huge scar on his back, and that gimpy leg that can’t bend, and which he uses as a kickstand, but these days actually uses it to walk on!) but he is the most handsome dog I have ever seen. His eyes are soooo beautiful.
Sambuka isn’t an AnimalsTaiwan dog, I found her on Forumosa. She had big hip issues because she spent her first 6 months in a cage, the other 6 months tied up. AnimalsTaiwan offered to help me find a good vet and a sollution to her problem.(One vet actually quoted NT$ 300 000 for fake hips) When I wanted to give her up, Sean immediately offered to take her in, and find someone who could give more attention to her.(she was shredding my apartment apart while I was at work)
Where are they today? We get up at 7.30am every morning and take them for a long(and difficult) walk in Hsintien mountain. Usually we get home after 8am and then they get chicken and we decide which house to keep them in.(Gf (J)and I live 3 mins walk away from each other) Doggies became a couple while I was house-sitting Js house for 5 weeks. They are now inseperable. Happy has calmed Sambuka down so much, she doesn’t cause much trouble anymore. Sambuka has turned Happy into a real dog…he copies her…she taught him how to chew a rawhide bone the other day…chewed it in half then gave half to him.(his lack of teeth makes it difficult) Happy’s leg can’t bend, but he JUMPS up to my face when I get home. He looks way spastic while doing it, but wow, what an achievement! Every night the 4 of us cuddle in bed together. Some nights we wake up and Happy has forced his way onto our pillows, and stretched his paws out so we get moved aside in our sleep! Both of them sleep with their heads on the pillows:)
The other night we tried having alone time with our dogs, so I headed home with Sambuka and Happy managed to get his head out of his collar and ran home after us.
I will add some pics of the happy couple. See how I have to fight to get a spot on the bed (Happy is lying behind me on my pillow!)
don’t give up hope…every animal is so worth it.