Thanks all for your kind replies.
You know, at times like this people tend to regret, regret things they have done or haven’t, things they said or haven’t said. It’s not different in my case. My regret is that I couldn’t communicate with her as my chinese is still very poor and she could speak only Taiwanese. But I know that she wanted me to feel like home every time we visited her. Mostly she bought me some sashimi, only for me, nobody else could take a piece.
I also in a way regret that I didn’t fulfill her wish that we have children, but I didn’t feel ready back than and I don’t feel ready at this moment. So this is a thing I couldn’t give her.
Having a business like ours doesn’t give us the time for children I believe.
Maybe I should geive it a thought before I’m too old though.
As for the preps for the funeral, I guess I’ve to pass this one, the family is quite big and I’ve our business to run, which will be really difficult without my wife for the next week or so.
You see, even In Taiwan you’re dropped in real life once in a while. As she was of reasonable age already I always tried to prepare for a moment like this, but you can’t.
Many times I told myself that I wanted to stay in Taiwan until my wifes mother passed away so it would easier for my wife to move to Europe and not getting homesick.
So…maybe this the sign for me to leave Taiwan, however I’m not finished doing what I wanted to do.
Perhaps shouldn’t have posted my regrets but in times like these people need to blow of steam.
What keeps me busy though is the way the accident happend, no-one told me anything more than that she had an accident.
Should go now, join the family in grieving.