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921 Earthquake in Taiwan
"… This is the email that I sent to my friends and family right after the 921 earthquake hit in Taipei. For reference purposes, Gus was my .ORG site partner and was also my housemate at the time of the incident (which is how we met). Also for your reference, I clearly have nothing better to do with my life. Also for your reference, the quest for an EARTHQUAKE BOYFRIEND still stands… "
Back in the old days of .ORG, Gus and I used to meet every Monday evening OUTSIDE the apartment (usually at a nearby coffee shop) since our lives were so meshed together (we lived together, worked at the WTC, and were building this website project together as well, face time over kill!). We would often meet until very late in the evening, which is why I was still up when the earthquake hit. 921 of course, happened on a Monday evening.
Hello everyone.
Sorry for the incommunicado (is that a word) and the mass email. There were so many messages to respond to, I haven’t been able to get to everyone. It’s Wed. morning and I am finally at a computer. I’ve had no electricity since the earthquake happened so I haven’t been able to log on until just now. (Mark, Bob, etc. how the…) News of how serious the damages were didn’t trickle in until much later on in the day, on top of the fact that we didn’t have access to a radio or tv for the first day and a half.
Yesterday I spent the afternoon roaming the city with friends (thank God for friends) as was the rest of Taipei it seemed, no one wanted to be indoors in the dark, lights were out in many parts of the city and kept blowing out wherever we went, we finally had to dispatch one person to go in search of any place that had electricity so we could have at least one decent meal (literally sent out a scooter-in-search-of-food before the rest followed), and we kept each other company for the latter part of the evening.
It wasn’t until this morning when I checked my emails, that the emotional stress of the whole situation actually hit me. I couldn’t hold back the tears for a split second there (ok, 15 mins). Can you believe that I, Christine Hsu, shed a tear?! Have stranger things happened?
I’ve been overwhelmed by the number of phone calls, emails and ICQs that I’ve been getting. I can’t tell you how much it HELPS. I’ve always thought of myself as a relatively strong person who could handle emergency situations such as these, but I’ve been put to the test, and the official results are as follows: I’M A TOTAL WUS.
I can’t help but feel this tremendous sense of guilt knowing that I’m here, alive and well, typing on this computer and sitting through an aftershock while people down south are still trapped. Smaller after shocks took place over night (can I say that I’m getting used to this feeling?), and as I write this, a big one just occurred. It was so big that I am certain more people in Taichung just perished as I wrote this paragraph. I didn’t even realize how stressed I was about this until I started typing this message. I guess if there was ever a time to be emotional, now is the time.
I don’t know how many of you have been through earthquakes like this… all I can say is, it is FRIGHTENING. I think if I had been asleep and was abruptly waken by it, it wouldn’t have been so traumatizing b/c I would have just been clueless and groggy like my other do-do friends here (I’m not a morning person) … just had a 2nd big after shock as I write this paragraph … but b/c I was still on my computer at 1:45 am or whenever it happened and was wide awake (abusing a friend on ICQ but of course), the events that took place scared the LIVING DAYLIGHTS out me.
First, the power started weakening and the lights flickered on and off. I ignored it, thinking oh great, another power outage. The electricity came back on for a second, and then BOOM. Everything went out, lights, A/C, fans, computer, the building started rocking violently, people (me) started screaming and car alarms outside were going off outside like firecrackers. All within the same few seconds. The worst part of it was, I was half dressed.
I have no idea how I managed to throw my clothes on (and the right ones too) in the dark, plus my room was sort of messy, but I remember running out of the room screaming, GUS! GUS! GUS! OH MY GOD OH MY GOD, WHERE ARE YOU?!!!
That in itself was funny b/c if any of you know Gus, you can imagine how difficult it was for me trying to imagine him coming to my rescue. Gus is not your typical macho macho man who beats his chest and flexes his muscles on impulse; he’s a logical, intellectual, let’s-think-this-through-first kind-of-guy while I’m here jumping up and down and screaming my head off like a freakin’ cheerleader. (It’s amazing that we actually created a decent looking website together now that I think about it LOL…)
Mind you I am NOT cutting up Gus! He’s a terrific guy, MAN I mean, but I just can’t picture him playing Tarzan while I, a damsel in distress, scream for help. ANYWAY. I couldn’t see a thing, and all I could hear was Gus fumbling around and saying “I’m here! I’m here!” instead of telling me exactly WHERE he was. WHERE? HERE! WHERE??! HERE!!! Later on I realized that Gus, the poor guy, had no idea where he himself was. He had passed out on the living room couch while watching t.v. and wasn’t totally awake when the earthquake hit (read 8th paragraph again). While I yelled into his room, he was actually behind me the whole time. We were… disoriented!
Then this heated debate took place about whether or not we should stay inside (we’re on the 4th floor of a 4-story building) and an entire discussion took place about the chances of survival if the building were to fall. If it were to happen and we were caught in the stairways, would we survive? If we do make it out, would the falling debris be even more life-threatening? Would we have a better chance of surviving by staying in the apt. since we’re on the top floor? And perhaps rescuers would find our bodies first on top of all the other dead people… oh that’s good.
Gus: Christine don’t you know that we should go UP and not DOWN during earthquakes?
Me: FINE let’s go UP. NOW. LET’S GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE. (I’m running to the door…)
Gus: No, just stay here. (still horizontal)
Me: DIDN’T YOU JUST SAY TO GO UP??!
Gus: No just stay here. We’ll be FINE.
Me: NO DAMNIT. I GOTTA GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE, I CAN’T STAY IN THIS BUILDING.
I ended up staying anyway duh. And the whole time the building was rocking violently. Words of wisdom to you folks out there who are reading this and thinking, how can Christine even think about being witty at a time like this. PRE-DETERMINE WHAT YOU ARE GOING TO DO DURING AN EARTHQUAKE SO YOU DON’T SIT THERE AND ARGUE ABOUT IT WHILE IT’S HAPPENING. I’m serious. Drop whatever you are doing right now and turn to those beside you and make your decision now.
Anyway, I’m fine. So far as I know, all my friends and family in Taiwan are all fine although still shaken up. I can’t say any more that I’m not afraid of the dark. Each time the power goes out, my heart starts jumping out of control, even if it’s just someone who accidentally pushed the OFF switch!! I don’t think I’ll ever forget that moment when the earthquake hit.
One thing though. Throughout it all, I kept thinking, I NEED A BOYFRIEND! ANY boyfriend with do! Forget the successful, tall, dark and handsome profile who makes me laugh and can have insightful conversations with me over coffee. Forget the soul mate, The One, someone from a happy home who likes to play video games and pool with me but who doesn’t have dragon tattoos all over his body or drive around in beefed up Chinatown gangster-style hotrods. IT DON’T MATTER. I JUST NEED SOMEONE TO BE THERE WITH ME WHEN THIS HAPPENS AGAIN, SO MOM, DO SOMETHING. I promise I won’t be picky any more! If you know of any one who is willing to be my boyfriend during earthquakes and other natural and/or man-made disasters, please give him my phone number here in Taipei. I’ll take the first one who calls!!!
Seriously though… (well I was kinda serious there…)
I have always lived my life under this one basic concept: I could die tomorrow. Therefore, today, I am going to “live”. Embrace life with a passion and have as much fun as possible. People often accuse me of being a “really intense person”, I either love with a passion or hate with fury or work like a maniac or laugh hysterically at things that others don’t think are funny. Hey it’s not easy being me! But I wouldn’t want to live life any other way.
Life is too short to be apathetic about ANYTHING, or to accept anything in our lives (relationships, mostly) that is less than true, or to be anything less than happy. There is no excuse to take anything we have or anyone we care about for granted. This earthquake only serves as a reminder to me of why I am the way I am (neurotic, obsessive, focused, die-hard about everything, PSYCHO… whatever you want to call it LOL!!). So for those of you who weren’t sure before, well, now you know.
Anyway. I’ll shut up now.