Awkward reunion situation!
Recently, I went back to the small town in BC where I took E.S.L. classes for one summer years ago. Met my first Canadian crush and his Japanese wife accidently. Well, usually, I would be polite and sociable then soon find an excuse dismissing myself in the similar situation. No hard feeling nor anything further at all.
However, I was shock by how his wife resembles to me. It wasn’t that bad if it was just me! I saw his wife’s face twisting and he closing his eyes as if he wished this was just a nightmare the moment we met. Awkward is the only word I can think of to describe it!
I am 10 years his senior. I was already in my late 20’s and he’s just a college freshman going to junior when we first met. Like most other average single Taiwanese women, my experience of relationship with men were nearly none. I spent most time on studying and worked on saving money to fulfill my dream—Studying aboard. Of course, I was no hot girl and a little bit chubby, hence… I had very low self-esteem and some trusting issue with men. I made up my mind to have a new life and be a much happier person the moment I step out of Taiwan. I managed to lost 35 lb in 3 months before I went to Canada.
He, on the other hand, was a prom king type of guy in his town. He’s been dating a prom queen since high school. He was chosen to be our teacher assistant that summer. His job majorly was talking and accompanying with international students. Most of the International students were young and rich Japanese and Hong Kong students . I were the first Taiwanese of that program and the oldest one. Hence, even though I was stunned by his beauty (yes, it’s the word) and personality. However, I knew my standard so I kept my distance from him! I didn’t’ think if he even noticed my exist at all.
I was surprised and ultra flatted to be told that Prince Charming was very interesting in me. Other than that , first thought in my mind was “Mrs., Robinson” when I calmed down! He must think I was experienced while I had none experience with men at all! I ain’t gonna embarrassed myself for a kid! Therefore, I hardened my heart and never closed to him without a 10 foot pole. Later on, the summer had been the happiest yet the most torturing time of my life. I enjoyed being flushed with tons of attention by a boy of my dream. I had to reject his charm and persistent pursuing the same time. I didn’t think it could dent him a bit since he’s such a popular and charming person. I transferred to other big city after the summer as he transfer to university of the same city. But we never met again till recent.
With all those beautiful and smart young girls( both Canadians and Japanese) he had dated, why on the earth he married to a women who’s as plane (if not ugly) as I am and seems to be much older than him? Suddenly, I felt all the guilt and wondered what I had done to him that summer! I wish I were more mature and wiser to handle the situation and didn’t hurt that wonderful boy at all!
Sorry for the long post! I’m just expressing my regret of hurting a young man’s feeling! Just wish him and his family the best! Thank you for tolerating my post!
