Hi guys
I’m a 27 years old Taiwanese male,
feminine , skinny, long haired
I’m physically a boy, no surgeries, no hormones.
I don’t live as a woman, but I’d like to think of myself passable.
I tend to be unisex,
tho considered feminine in most people’s eyes.
I sometimes appear more feminine , wear neutral clothes and makeups etc.
I find all races attractive , but it’s easier and stronger for me to get attracted to white guys.
I think it’s fair to say that feminine males are not what the majority of gay community goes for,
and it’s the same everywhere.
But it seems to me that no one wants feminine males in Taiwan.
(I know asian males genereally appear more feminine in westerners’ eyes, but I mean relatively even more feminine.)
I have never met any Taiwanese guy who likes me romantically.
I only meet people who are interested in me on the internet,
and they’re all in other countries.
Last year I moved to Taipei from other city in Taiwan,
and started meeting guys,
but they’re either visiting here or married.
So all that just ended up as encounters,
none of them can develop anything.
All that is just so frustrating.
Coz what I want the most is a relationship,
and I can’t expect that from them.
Tho at first I thought I could have some fun while on the road to find my own man,
but later I was surprised to learn that even finding someone regular for sex isn’t that easy either.
Tho occasionally I see foreigners when I go to bars/clubs,
they seem interested in regular boys who either masculine or boyish,
not someone like me.
I never did the first move when it comes to in person,
even on the internet, I rarely be the one who sends the first message.
It’s just not my style, I don’t wanna appear as someone who jumps on every guy he sees.
and I think I’m not really that confident person,
I like more typical type of guy, which is harder to tell if the guy is gay or if he’s interested in me.
and also I seriously worry that I might get pounched in the face
if I hit on some homophobia guy.
So basically,
nothing happens in my lovelife,
if there’s anything,
they’re just encounters, nothing meaningful or potential.
I just wonder if anyone can give me some advices,
coz I think I’m a good person, I have a job,
not that I’m saying I’m a supermodel, but some people find me attractive.
I just feel very depressed and frustrated that I can’t even meet guys for dating,
it’s like I don’t even have the chance,
I often wonder that if there’s something wrong with me
or I just don’t know some tricks to find someone.
Sorry for this long post,
I just thought it would help if I offer more information about me and the whole situation.