[quote=“Buttercup”]Absolutely. I am awful when I’m off on one, and I know it; I’m lazy, mean, defensive, histrionic and argumentative. I’m very very irritable because I can’t bear light, noise or being touched. I accomplish nothing because I am either OCD-ishly obsessive or couldn’t give a shit ADD-ish. I sleep 18 hours a day or not at all, food between 400 and 4000 cals a day. I am a real test of my loved ones’ patience and I know it.
People don’t understand and think I’m behaving badly (they’ll learn to be more gracious and adult about it, when they get sick, as we all do at different times…), or they do and choose to sidestep me because they see themselves as ‘positive thinker’ types and either think I’m not listening to their advice or simply choose to stay out of my way. I deflect all this shit with my wings of steel. I have this blank smile screensaver face which pings the bs right back atcha.
I’m actually fine with the ‘aloneness’ of it. Now I’m older, I just see it as part of myself and roll with it. Getting anxious about it doesn’t help; that’s when you start hurting yourself. But I’m 34, smart, confident, experienced in life; don’t forget how terrifying mental illness can be for kids and support 'em if you can.
Ouch, nama, sorry about that. And fuck 'em; make your own damn party.[/quote]
:roflmao: You get it. I love the part about ADD-ish. Oh so fuckin true. See the thing about depression is, at least with me, it’s brought on by stress. Overload the circuits and you get a surge. For me, spending time with people is important, but it’s difficult to spend time with people who don’t want spend time with you when they are holding on to grudges about not returning phone calls, and stupid shit like that.
The only thing I hate about my depression is the time lost. And the zap of energy. Otherwise, it’s allowed me to move outside of that “box” some never see until they get to the end of the tunnel and realize “oh it was really about relationships and quality of life that CAN"T be bought.”
Materlistic muthaf###kas,but that’s another rant for another day.
What bothers me the most about depression is how some, SOME, people view it as something contagious. Like its the flu? :loco: I just laugh at it all, becuase I swear for God, life is hysterical at times.
okay /rant off.