I have stayed mum so far, but feel that it’s time to explain about my situation.
Why did my marriage end?
There are many reasons.
First of all, you have the cultural difference, which means that communication will always be harder.
A very smart guy said to me: “Only marry a girl from a happy family”. True indeed, as we are likely to behave in relationships the way we saw our parents behave. If we come from a family, which was well and truly fucked, we might be conditioned to behave in the same way in our own marriage.
Different background, apart from the cultural aspects. I come from a stable upper middle class family. Big house, big cars, summer houses, money never a problem. My former wife on the other hand comes from a relatively poor family, who until 10 years ago got a major part of their income from farming tea. Coming to Europe and see a happy family in a huge house with a mercedes in front of it gave her a bit of an inferiority feeling, and she tried to make up for it by making me feel low, especially when I ran into problems. For instance a bit more than a year ago, I worked a hellish job in an espresso machine factory. The boss was a fool, and due to his mismanagement and complete lack of people skills, the staff turnover in an average year would be some 80%. Once when I complained about the pressure I was under, my ex replied with:" It’s because you have problems yourself and you should not blame your boss. You should blame yourself instead".
Obviously, threats and the like was a natural part of the relationship. If I ever complained about her behavior, she would tell me that if I did not shup up, she would divorce me, and I would lose my children completely. Another favorite of hers was to tell me about my family and how horrible they were. As we live 10,000km away from them and I only see them once ot twice per year, utterings like this tends to hurt me a bit. The last 12-18 months, when I asked her to stay a bit more with me, she would usually tell me that she did not love me, and that she liked the company of her family.
Then obviously, there was the sad fact that she preferred to spend most of her time in the company of her family, instead of at home. Mind you, we are not talking about her going there once or twife a week, but her basically living there and spending 3-5 nights per week at their house, a situation which for all purposes started when we arrived in Taiwan in November 2000.
Another ghost in our relationship was that we lived in Denmark from 1997 to 2000. She found integrating into Danish society very hard, and well… I was busy finishing up my studies and working part time to support the family, so well… She had to face situations and issues alone, and we were less rich than what she expected. After all, even though we got support from my family, it was not on a level, where we were wealthy by any standards, we were just getting by. She was short of a network there, and she was unable to build up support. that we got support from my family was also a problem for her.
Obviously, since we broke up a few things have happened. First of all I realize that I have to deal with her for many years to come. We have 2 children, and we need to be able to communicate well in order to ensure that the breakup of their marriage does not affect them more than absolutely necessary. Secondly, for some reason which eludes me, she’s not able to work full time, and therefore she needs some kind of financial support from me. Third of all, I intend to remain as a presence in the life of my 2 daughters, and I will need to be in constant contact with her in order to ensure this.
However, honestly, I don’t regret a thing. I have 2 beautiful girls, a nice house to live, in and a good life here. I did get a lot of value out of my marriage, and I have learned a lot from this whole process.