Some people aren’t bothered with darkness. I am. It’s under control I think. I can live a normal life, I just leave a light on in the house at night if I’m home alone and I manage fine. But not without discomfort. I generally avoid being in the dark by myself as much as possible. If someone is with me, I’m fine. Even a dog makes a big difference as I am comforted knowing that dogs have strong senses.
Quite a few years back, I was hired to do night spraying on a citrus farm called Capricorn Orchards in Australia. The work consisted of operating a spraying rig from the pressurized cabin of a farm tractor. The water tank was big enough to last about 45 minutes. I then had to get out of the cabin and flag where I finished before I would go fill up and mix chemicals into the water tank. It was pitch black and I was in the middle of a big farm. The tractor had huge lights but they only light the front of the rig while the water tank was on the rear end. Every time I got out of the damn machine my heart was thumping. I hated that job but the money was good at the time. I got in troubles a few times for driving all the way to the pump-house to fill up because there was big lights there. I would turn on all the lights I could find.
I know people who can go walk alone in the forest at night, camping, etc. I would freak out. Hard to understand how hard it would be for me.
I sometimes thought about seeking help for this but like I mentioned, my day to day life isn’t affected much by this phobia. I’m not really self-conscious about it either so I don’t mind sharing this. Forumosa is free unlike other resources so I thought I’d just ask Dr. Forumosan for some hints as to why someone would be afraid of darkness and maybe also get some advice as to how to deal with it better. Please do not refer me to a doctor, it’s not going to happen so save your fingers. Just say what you think regardless how educated or knowledgeable you are on the subject.
Thanks in advance,