On the subject of brutal hand-to-hand fighting, I’ve read up a lot on the Anglo-Zulu war (KwaZulu-Natal, South Africa, 1879) and I’m sure some of you, the Saffers and Brits at least, will have heard of the battles of Isandlwana and Rorke’s Drift.
Isandlwana was basically a massacre - of the British force, armed with the latest modern weaponry (breech loading rifles, artillery pieces, even a Gatling gun - one of the first ever in operation, I think). They were overwhelmed by the Zulu force, armed with cowhide shields and assegais (short, broad-bladed stabbing spears - ultimately it came down to hand to hand fighting, and the Zulu accounts* that I’ve read of the battle all talk of the remaining Brits either begging for mercy (they recieved none) or fighting tooth and claw, possessed with the desperation of a close and inevitable death with a spear through their bellies, with whatever they could get their hands on, if they had happened to lose their rifles/bayonets in the action. Being in that kind of situation - faced with the immediate inevitability of a very violent death, with death all around you, is something that none of us could possibly imagine…
Rorke’s Drift was a different story. A few hundred Brits held a small missionary outpost against a few thousand Zulus, who attacked in waves throughout the night - loads of hand-to-hand fighting, skewering on bayonets, the whole nightmare lit up only by the moon and the burning roof of the hospital building (which the Zulus had set on fire) . The soldiers who survived that, particularly the ones in the thick of the hand-to-hand fighting (a lot of whom won VCs) all suffered from severe forms of post-traumatic stress after the battle, from what accounts I’ve read.
True hand-to-hand combat, in a life and death situation, with death all around you, is possibly one of the most nightmarish things a human being could possibly experience. I’m sure the adrenalin and immediacy of death would make you capable of all sorts of superhuman acts… but at what cost to your sanity, and soul…
Peace. Sorry for the ramble, but it’s an interesting topic.
*Zulu accounts were the only ones of the final stages of the battle of Isandlwana as all of the Brits were wiped out.