[quote=“Gao Bohan”]
Well, count me out of the hate-fest. I don’t think that bigotry is justified in any circumstance. Each person should be judged as an individual. Carrying a load of negative assumptions about a person based on their gender, race, etc., is literally the definition of prejudice. It’s amazing to me that otherwise intelligent, educated people have here bought into such small-minded spite.[/quote]
This is the conclusion I’ve come to and I’ll add to it.
“Carrying a load of negative assumptions about a person based on their gender, race, etc., is literally the definition of prejudice and it will make you miserable to spend a lot of time entertaining those thoughts.”
I can’t remember exactly when it was- I should look through my notes and try to figure it out, but at some point in the last year I had this horrible realization. I AM SEXIST. It was such a crazy moment, because I really hate sexism (against women ). I had to even say it aloud because it hit me so hard. How many times a day did “men are so stupid” go through my head? Kind of a lot. I don’t think I’ve always been sexist- I think it got really bad at the midway point of the years I lived in Taiwan. The thought that got me to realize my own sexism was when I started to develop a theory that marrying or otherwise settling down with a man would be a lot like going into business with a crack addict-- my thought was that his libido/sex was the addiction. I just saw so many men behaving badly on account of satisfying their more carnal desires.
Not only that but I sought out sources to prove that I was right. Reading pick up artist shit (Still really good for a laugh, but NOT useful when it comes to letting go of my sexism) reading the more thorny stuff about the men’s movement, red pill stuff on reddit…reading forumosa.com So easy to find evidence to back me up! Because there are a lot of stupid men! And even though there was a certain comfort in the righteous indignation I felt when I found yet another example of how stupid men were, I have to say the effect my own sexism had on my life as a whole was not positive. And that’s where I had to start from- because I’m a selfish person, I knew the only thing that would motivate me to change was seeing how my own sexism hurt me.
Believing 50some odd % of the population is shitty and stupid did not make me feel good (even if I counted myself among the other 50%). who wants to be surrounded by morons all day? Does it feel good to be surrounded by morons? Is it satisfying? Like I said, the righteous indignation can give you a little boost but it’s a far cry from long-lasting happiness.
And even though I was in the process of limping off a horrific failure of a relationship at the time (likely a contributing factor to my surge of sexism), I knew that somehow, someday, I did want a HEALTHY satisfying relationship with a MAN. Because though I’ve tried at times to convince myself otherwise (for the sake of convenience and not having to deal with idiots) I love cock and I’m profoundly straight. Sigh. Anyways were my sexist thoughts going to help me have a healthy relationship with a man? Seriously. No. If I thought of my future significant other the way Pujwhateverhisnameis thinks about his wife (as a child, as an idiot) there’s no way that I would be able to take his needs seriously and give him what he needed to be happy. There’s no way I would be able to create the kind of relationship and eventually family I wanted if I believed my partner was an idiot (and not even by virtue of his own actions, but because of prejudice.)
Anyways I started consciously trying to collect stories of good men. I laid off the PUA reading, blocked reddit for a while, and though I didn’t quite kick my forumosa addiction, I tried to look for examples of good men on forumosa— and they’re HERE. Even if they aren’t as loud as some of our other resident retards. Instead of thinking of the guys I knew who were cheating, I tried to focus on my brother- who’s the best man I know and the man I know best. He’s such a good person. If a person like that can exist in a male body then obviously not all men are idiots. My brother is a good dude, awesome husband, amazing father. He’s got his shit together, and he benefits the lives of the women (and men) around him. How could I ignore an example that’s right in front of me? Well…maybe because I was halfway around the world.
Anyways, I still struggle sometimes and that reflects in my posts here but I think I’ve made some pretty decent headway when it comes to seeing men as people first, not as idiots with crack addictions. And that change reflects in my life. I am dating this amazing guy. And I sincerely don’t think he’s an idiot. I’ll let ya know if I get burned for my optimism.
I think it’s like anything else. There’s evidence enough to support all sorts of theories about the world- you can pretty much collect any facts you want to believe any thing you want. So it makes sense to direct your focus to the positive and delude yourself a little to believe the positive, because even if you’re “wrong” you’ll be happy, and just thinking more about the positive will cause you to take actions that bring you closer to the positive.