It’s been almost 10 years since I first set foot in Taiwan and started facing the everyday adversities of living in an Asian country, but perhaps I was never fully prepared for the people who stare.
In Canada, it is considered bad manners to stare at people in public places and so I brought these values with me. Of course in Canada it is considered bad manners to do a lot of things so perhaps the comparison is unfair. I have also considered the differences in culture with regard to staring, in addition to what the TW call bad manners and it still does not add up.
So instead I looked to myself. I am a relatively attractive guy and a smart dresser, and I am white. These things would turn people’s heads in most Asian countries, but certainly do not justify gawking as if I had just debarked from a flight from Mars.
However, I am also slightly paranoid and sometimes easily irritated. So it could be that I make a mountain out of a mole hill sometimes when I notice people staring at me. I should add that I am still a little insecure about my place in TW society and respectful of my residency so I tend to relish a low-profile most of the time.
When I am unduly noticed, I cringe. But, considering the prevalence of white Western people in this big city, it amazes me that it is still happening after all these years…and still bothering me.
There is one more thing that adds to the mix: I have been told by quite a few TW men that I am handsome. It usually happens in a classroom but sometimes it just happens in a supermarket or on the street. I usually laugh it off because, even though I have nothing against gay people, I am secure enough in my straight sexuality to appreciate the comment and consider this another reason why people stare at me.
I would hate to be really good looking at get stared at by both sexes all the time. I can’t imagine how awful that would be. So although I am a socially outgoing person, I am not a “look at me” person at the best of times.
I think the time that I am bothered the most by staring is when I am patronizing a restaurant where I am a regular. It always occurs to me that people are waiting for me to open my mouth and make some sort of language mistake, or fumble around looking for chopsticks, napkins and side dishes so they can leap out of their chairs and smooth things out for me.
I generally stare back at them until they look away. It is the only mechanism I have for dealing with this problem.
At any rate, I am wondering if any other longtimers in TW suffer the same problems I do and what you do about it, internally and externally?