[quote=“bismarck”]Honestly, I’m totally freaking out. I get all jittery and I get this knot in the pit of my stomach.
As some of you may or may not know, I’m getting married soon (probably in the next month or so). At first I was very excited and I was rather looking forward to settling down and perhaps starting a family at some stage. I’m 31 and I’ve found a wonderful lady whom I enjoy talking to, spending my time with and we both make each other laugh and we have good fun together. The “fringe benefits” aren’t bad either and there’s no problem there.
However, as those of you who are married will know, you have to apply for a “single” certificate from your home country. I duly did this. About a week ago the Liaison Office in Taipei called me and told me it had arrived. I’ve put off going to Taipei for about a week already and will be going this week.
After the lady called to say it had arrived (for those of you who don’t know, you need this certificate to get married and make an appointment with the relevant legal officials to set a date for your nuptials) this feeling started.
Let me make it clear that I love this woman and that we don’t have any relationship issues. Yet, I’ve started freaking out. I find myself thinking of lost opportunities, no more bachelorhood freedom (probably a good thing as I don’t go out and piss away my salary anymore), and the ones that got away. Two in particular.
First and foremost there is my first gf in Taiwan whom I loved very much, had a long standing relationship with and ended as still being good friends. We do sometimes call each other but we decided two years ago that we don’t really have any romantic feelings for each other, but are just very good friends. The reason why we broke up originally. The thing is, I always felt very comfortable with her and now it’s all plaguing on my mind. The “what if” questions…
The second one is a girl that I became friends with while she was studying her MA in Tainan. About a year and a half ago she finished and moved to go work in Taipei. We also remained friends and stayed in touch. About six months ago she came to Tainan for a visit and asked me, “If I had stayed in Tainan, would we ever have been together?” I was floored. I had always liked her but thought she wasn’t interested. She’s very nice, very sexy, very well spoken and very interesting. I couldn’t believe it. Anyway, what with her being in Taipei and me being happy in Tainan, there was talk at a stage that perhaps she would move back to Tainan or I could move to Taipei. Neither happened and we just remained friends. However, sometimes we chat on msn and she openly flirts with me. She also begs the question, “What if???”
In truth, I’m really happy with my fiance and I really love her, but this nagging question of “What if??” keeps playing over and over in my head. Ever since the damn Single Certificate arrived and the final stage of physically getting married became a reality I’ve just been freaking out…
Any of you married guys ever have this problem? Is it normal? Am I going nuts?
How to just get myself over this and focus on the wonderful woman I have.
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my GF pestered me for six months everyday to get married. And i was scared frankly of marriage. Finally one day she said something that really made a lot of sense. She said that we were already too involved with each other to be able to say goodbye so why was i afraid? She said we have gone past the point of no return already. I went to the sulfur baths in yangmingshan later by myself ( i was off, she was working) and i thought bout it and it really made sense to me. I wasnt prepared to say goodbye to her already. So it made perfect sense to me right then and there. And i had no further problems with the idea of marrying her. HOwever, i think that all the work involved in getting to say YES took its toll and was part of the reason we later got divorced. But thats another story.
But marriage is a very serious commitment and before it happens BOTH parties need to say YES 100pct. i would be more then pleased if i could marry my current GF. And wouldnt for a moment feel she wasnt the right one for me. I may not be the right one for HER, but thats another story !
and as for all those past GFs? Well they can be evil. NOw that they know you are getting married, they feel left out and are all sweet and gooey to you. YOu should say FOOey to them.
the taiwanese have a saying: (loosely translated) A good Bull never looks back at the grass he left behind.