I understand what Sherryx is going through. I have been here for almost 7 years.
I live in Jiayi with my girlfriend. I’ve been here for about 9 months now but I still don’t know many people.
There are days when I wake up and hate this place. I drive down the street and think that the mass majority of people here are shit. Running red lights and almost hitting me, throwing bricks at dogs, pointing at me and laughing while saying hello.
Those days usually occur at a time when I haven’t done something for myself for too long. For me it’s going to the mountains, the beach (my favorite), going out to see something new, spending time with people I love.
I actually had one of those days today. I yelled at a couple of people while driving. I even yelled at the rain. It’s been pissing down almost everyday for a month or so.
As I said, I don’t know a lot of people down here so my days are mostly spent at work.
A couple of weeks ago I decided to pour myself into my work. Since doing so i’ve gotten a promotion of sort. I am feeling good about myself because I am doing a better job henseforth the people I teach (Both children and adults) are getting more from my classes.
I saved a cute little puppy from the street and she is amazing. Learning fast. Being a great friend to my other dog that I also saved and love(although they fight like…animals )
Isolation can be like a poison here. You have troubles and no one to share/rant them with and you want to run away.
You aren’t alone. There are people who feel the same way as you. Just go outside and look at some palm trees. That is a simple quick fix for me. PALM TREES. Don’t have those back where i’m from. It almost makes me feel like i’m on vacation when I look at them. The equivalent of “stop and smell the roses”
I just bought a new expensive American helmet and it fits well. Sometimes I drive down the street and do a Taiwanese Buddhist chant. It seems silly maybe but it works for me. The only thing I hear because of the lack of wind noise is my chanting and I ignore mostly everything else.
Talking shit here I guess, but all I am trying to say is that if you are feeling hopeless, just know that you are not alone.
Focus on what you love.